S'up bitches.

Been a while.

Might make a proper update later.

It has been such a LONG time since I did anything with this. I sort of miss being able to write things down somewhere.

Me and Clare are TOGETHER. Sort of. Kinda. It's complicated. She's in New Zealand until July, and we're both at the stage where we've both got other things to think about (My degree, her work and upcoming degree), yet neither of us can stop thinking about each other. It's a pretty messed up situation, but sort of nice at the same time.

Me and Kay look like we've finally cut off all ties. This is a most awesome thing, because she is the single most weird, fucked-up person I have ever met. Really. Honestly. Worse than SWSNBN.

Speaking of evil women, I never did see Mina. I'm really thankful for this. Maybe I AM stronger than I thought I was. Not sleeping with someone is both fulfilling and FUN.

I have ended up in another band. We've got our first jam on Wednesday (Without a practise space), and we're going to start writing choons in about a month. We're taking it slow - Guilty Party was a bit of a funny experience, as a whole. It got to the point where we'd gig, write for about a month, gig, gig, gig, and then get stuck for ideas. I didn't feel restrained when we were writing songs. Maybe pushed back, creatively. But definately not ignored. When we played the reunion show, I couldn't have been happier. And then I couldn't have been happier to not ever do it again. Yet, no more than 6 months ahead from that time, I'm thirsting for it again.
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Yeah. We're cool. And geeks.

I've been listening to a lot of weird stuff recently. From geeking it up to video game soundtracks, to old school hip-hop, to D-Beat, Grind and Crust. I'd like to think I'm expanding musical horizons, but I reckon I've just finally realised that being cool isn't about musical tastes. I don't know.

My degree is awesome. Let me come round to your houses to fix yo pooter bitches.

Current Mood: cold

Today, I am feeling much brighter. I think I have SAD, because the warmer it is, the better I feel. I'm even listening to My Chemical Romance. With Audioscrobbler off, of course.

Things with Clare aren't going to get better. But I dunno. I'm too much of a fool to cut it off and tell her to get fucked, even though I'm well within my rights to.

Oh, and SHE'S moving back to Manchester. Which could drive me back on shit again. I'll do my best to avoid it though, specifically because she doesn't deserve an ounce of respect or care from me or anyone she's ever fooled.

I need to be less Angsty, I reckon.

Current Mood: cheerful

I'm done with her.

I need a new band as soon as possible before I go completely fucking insane.

Current Mood: angry

Right. First thing's first - this is a new journal. So it's empty. I'd like to say it'll be less self-indulgent and self-pitying, but I'll give it a couple of weeks until I start moaning about stuff that's ridiculous. Until then, I will mention that work is busy. Very busy. With what's happened recently with me, it's been nice to take my mind off things and just knuckle down and earn some money. I have also rediscovered the love of gaming, though it seemingly only went away for a brief time. And the single reason for this?

( OBJECTION! )

I'll leave the theatrics for tomorrow night, but stuff seems to be looking up again. Maybe I'll get my passion for things back some time soon. It'd be nice.